A Prophet’s Trauma

Today I dive into explaining the trauma anyone with an ounce of the prophetic ‘gifting’, experiences when others screw up. Like observing a train-wreck in slow motion or a parent desperately diving in to prevent a child getting run over by a car or burned in a fire, some life experiences can be an agony. The job of the prophetic though is to continue to speak it forward – to speak it out. It, being the Truth.

I care.

Forget why I do, or why I claim to do care for just one minute, please and accept this. I do.

Caring means that when things go wrong for others, I feel that pain. Once again, please leave all the hypothesising or philosophising out for the moment and let’s just accept that while in a professional capacity I can be an absolute ar*ehole, at a personal level I hurt when others hurt.

I’m writing a short story at the moment called “The Trainwreck” in which a parent observer views their children on a travelling train hurtling towards a damaged bridge over a gorge and certain death for all aboard. Like many of my Short Stories it is a Christian Allegory. It speaks to the topic of trust but also highlights the huge loss of the Father when His Creation turned away from Him. What incredible pain it must have been when He came back to walk in the Garden of Eden only to find that Adam and Eve had gone their own way. I’ll update this post when it is published.

I’ve explained previously how the role of the prophetic is not so much to tell the future (everyone thinks that would be so cool, to know what is going to happen tomorrow) but to speak forth wisdom. If we define wisdom as the art of knowing the heart and mind of God in a given situation, then of course this can easily cross over into the art of telling the future. This difference is the difference between knowing that the crook in sights of your loaded gun will be dying if you squeeze the trigger and knowing that you will be squeezing that trigger because he will reject your ultimatum.

I’ve recently been devastated that a friend of mine recently had the jab and that her husband has had a stroke and blood clot as a direct result of the jab. What is so upsetting is not that the vaccine adverse reaction occurred, this is only to be expected, but that she of all people knew of the significance of getting the jab, yet still chose to do it. Listen to this and weep along with me:

Good morning,
We are patients of Dr [name redacted] and we want to stress how much we are feeling the pressure to take the covid vaccine. To be honest, it feels like bullying and we feel Dr [name redacted] knows our stance…we haven’t had a flu vaccine for years since [name redacted]’s cancer treatment for an unknown primary head and neck cancer in 2012 and subsequent heart attacks in 2013. [Name redacted] feels the vaccine (I encouraged him to have) caused the lumps in his neck.

My friend continues with a list of scary medical stuff, maybe it may have some meaning to you. I’m sure that it did to the sender and recipient:

Then my daughter got Henoch Schonlein Purpura after her vaccine at 4 years old.
One of my brother’s got Thrombocytopenia Purpura at 4 years old.. we can’t be sure that was after a vaccine though.
But my adult son died April 2019. He was misdiagnosed after his flu vaccine in 2017. He didn’t have epilepsy and there were no scans taken between his initial MRI after his first seizure and the appointment I managed to secure (because his GP refused to refer him to a Neurologist) in Christchurch. It was too late because his Glioblastoma brain tumors were fast growing and there were too many. But after his flu vaccine, he told me he was vomiting and had bad headaches… I told him to go to the doctor but he was staunch and brave.. when the first seizure started in February 2018, the damage had started in his brain.
My husband [name redacted] and I try to stay positive and look after ourselves the best we can.. [He] says he is alive because I look after him well. Our fear is, if we are pressured into the covid vaccine because of family and friends and the social media network… can we get a guarantee [name redacted] will be safe? If he needs to go to hospital unvaccinated right now, a fully vaccinated nurse with covid could potentially pass it to [him] and we feel he wouldn’t survive. He had hospital acquired pneumonia last June after they released him too soon… and that was bad enough!

The situation is and was a lot worse than my friend feared as the jab is simply not a vaccine and has greater and direct consequences for many. It is most definitely nothing like the seasonal flu jab!

Can we have our covid vaccines done at the [name redacted] medical centre if we get guarantees? If not, can we print a form asking for the name of the vaccinator, the batch number etc if we have to go elsewhere?
I’m sorry to ask these questions but after my family history of Alpha 1 anti-trypsin deficiency, RH negative blood type (my daughter and possibly late son), I don’t mind admitting I am literally terrified! But we will trust the advice of the best Doctor we have ever had.. [name redacted]
Regards and thank you,

How can you have a soul and not see the desperation in this woman’s voice? What part of “I don’t mind admitting I am literally terrified!” is confusing?

Sadly she and her husband had the jab on 3 October 2021, had to take her husband to Middlemore Hospital on 6 October 2021 over another matter then watched him shiver and suffer outside in the cold pending triage where he suffered a stroke and a blood clot on 13 October 2021. He is now at home. I fear for his health and would be very happy to see him make it through Christmas 2021.

Anyone working in the prophetic realm, such as myself needs to view the real world AND the spiritual. You cannot divorce the two if you claim to present reality. It is the truth applied into a given situation that gives us wisdom. Knowing that there is a political agenda behind the COVID-19 pandemic is one thing. Knowing that Bill Gates (for example) made gazillions off this, or even that Big Pharma lies and pays off politicians who in turn lie to us, is all very well and good but it is the knowledge that if we take the jab we will die sooner than necessary, at the hands of those who deceive in order to profit at our expense, that this is akin to suicide that brings fear of the godly.

The Good Book makes it perfectly clear that the fear (of God) is the beginning of wisdom.

Did that make sense? It is when we fear His judgment that we start to get smart, not fear that we cannot buy food, nor do our shopping nor travel to where we want, when we want.

The role of a biblical prophet is to draw people to the Lord, to God. We speak the Truth without fear or favour as we see it, speaking into some of life’s most difficult of situations. Yes, there is a component of putting the future forward, either do this and this will happen, and do that and that will happen, so in that sense there is indeed an aspect of future-telling. Much more important though than predicting whether the bad dude mentioned above will get shot or not is knowing that when you’re a thief and you’re facing a man with a loaded gun you could easily get shot unless you do the honourable thing, and fast!

In Samoa I had a couple of situations in which I effectively pointed the bone at people who ended up dead as a result. I don’t know if they died because of me or not, but I do know that I gave them a piece of my mind and let them have it, all straight of course but I effectively cursed them. One dude died on the same day as his grandson a few short weeks later. The local village people ascribe their deaths to whatever I said about him anyway. With my friend above I knew something was wrong but I thought it was just general surgical pain and recovery, so it took me ages to pluck up enough courage to call. I then found out what she had done and it was gut wrenching news. It was worse than I feared.

This is all scary stuff except for one thing . . . the more you go on speaking it as you see it; the more courage you get . . . the more you see the massive benefits that come as a direct result of your bravery; the more you see the specific calling you have to stand up for the underdog but much more importantly the more you can see the hand of God coming down and touching others.

I am NOT God’s gift to mankind but as sure as eggs I know as surely as I live, eat, breathe and speak that He is there with me and encouraging me to stand up for what is true, right, good, proper and godly. Don’t do what I do unless God calls you to do it. Instead do whatever you think He is telling you to do and do it as if your life depended upon it. I went to Samoa a pacifist and came back a realist. Up there, like in a war, I found myself a target. I was relatively rich and had the wrong colour skin but that training ground set me up to deal with some of the most insane guff you could think of – politicians who think they can boss others around, just because they call themselves “Cindy” or “Judy” or cuzzies who think they can just wander in here and take what they like . . . because, or crooked cops that think they are the law, just because their job is to enforce it.

I said above that I care. That, I do, but I also understand. I understand the [in]significance of slapping a rag around my face simply because somebody told me that I had to and contrary to common sense and all scientific reason. I understand the significance of a court system that capitalises my surname in a criminal case, and what it means when a District Court Judge ignores my request to correct a charge sheet. I understand what it means to a Creator that says, “Hey! Listen up people. How about you stop for just one second and actually do what I have asked you to do?”

Speaking it out – speaking it forth doesn’t make a lot of friends, granted but by golly it is the only way I know how to hear those magical words, “Well done good and faithful servant!” Make sure that you are there when we have that big party in the sky why not?